I thought about dating this but it would have to have tomorrow's date. We sat and watched the TV show Beyond and Back on the Biography Channel. It is here on the web, well, it will be here eventually, lol.
http://www.biography.com/video.do?name=isurvivedbeyondandback
The show turned out extremely well. I've had a lot of people already email, post comment on the blog and Facebook me messages telling me they enjoyed it. Chris, Supryia, and Alex.. plus the ones at the Bio Channel have done an excellent job. as we watched I heard sniffles, looked over and Denise was crying. She cried almost all through her interview which lasted from about 9-12. The first thing she noticed was that she had cried her makeup off and her face was puffy, lol. Personally, I thought she looked good. I aired with Dea and Matt. I haven't spoken with Matt but Dea is a nice lady. She write a book she sent to me, a very good book I must say.
If the events in my life have changed even one person, helped one person... then it is all worth it. That would make my life have meaning and it will be a life worth living. I will be truly blessed. Already I have heard from some that have said they liked the show. Already I have made new friends. And that is what life is about, the wealth you can take with you. Love, Honesty, Compassion, Forgiveness, Faith, Friendship.
Thank you to all of you who have commented. May God bless you and keep you from harm. But when and if harm comes, may He have reminders shown to you that no matter what happens, you are not alone unless you choose to be. May God keep it in your heart and mind that you count, you matter, and because of that, you are counted on.
God Bless and Keep You,
Anthony
Sunday, January 9, 2011
01-09-2011
Today is another day, lol. I had a bad abscess that came on my gum, maybe from cleaning, maybe not, who knows. It has finally gotten big enough to burst and actually feels so much better. I'm adjusting to the no teeth thing. I don't like it but then again Ive experienced a lot I really didn't like in the last 2 years, so I'll get use to it. One thing is sure, if Denise ever threatens to slap my teeth out, I can always hide the jar. :)
Tonight on the Biography Channel's I Survived Beyond and Back, me and Denise air. I think at 10PM, est. Boy do I ever look different now, lol. Denise says I'm a fuzzy, snaggle toothed woolie booger, she left out the word fat.
Tomorrow we see if the Prednisone is working I've been on for what seems an eternity. It doesn't feel like it has. I think the constant sinus and bronchitis have set it back a bit. Not sure if that will effect the scope up the nose, I think not. The other drug they injected in surgery last time, they are suppose to be able to inject from the outside now. If they do I hope they knock me out first, or at least dope me up where I won't know better, lol. While it may be wrong, I picture the shot like the shots in the shoulder or knee.
Tonight on the Biography Channel's I Survived Beyond and Back, me and Denise air. I think at 10PM, est. Boy do I ever look different now, lol. Denise says I'm a fuzzy, snaggle toothed woolie booger, she left out the word fat.
Tomorrow we see if the Prednisone is working I've been on for what seems an eternity. It doesn't feel like it has. I think the constant sinus and bronchitis have set it back a bit. Not sure if that will effect the scope up the nose, I think not. The other drug they injected in surgery last time, they are suppose to be able to inject from the outside now. If they do I hope they knock me out first, or at least dope me up where I won't know better, lol. While it may be wrong, I picture the shot like the shots in the shoulder or knee.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
01-06-2011
I went for a cleaning and plan today to the dentist. It was good to see my old friends at Morristown Dental Center again. Denise had me ask for a neck shield for the X-Rays and so I shielded my throat from them. It did not go well. I kind of knew in the back of my mind what would turn out but secretly prayed it would be better than I thought. It wasn't. The lack of saliva is hard on keeping teeth, and mine have never been good teeth anyway. The chemo probably didn't help the matter anyway on the gums as they are in very bad shape, but I'm guessing on that one.
While he said he would do whatever I wanted, he was honest when I asked his opinion. That is one thing I really like about Dr Stelzman, he is sincere and honest, plus one of the best in the field. Dr Campbell was too when I saw her back right after the chemo, but she is facing some surgery, so I'm not taking anything from her. I know the team and Dr Stelzman from delivering to them for years, plus I went to them as a patient for many years. I trust him and the ladies there.
The treatment recommended is to pull all but 2, maybe 3 teeth teeth on the bottom, no guarantees if they will be saved. If he can save two of them he can make a partial, which he says is better than a full plate for using. I've heard that from may people. He says that it will be hard even then to keep them. Dr Sidney Boyd is who will extract them, most excellent in his field. We start Tuesday with the remaining back tooth first. Then, after it heals enough, we see if any can be saved of the 5 remaining teeth on the bottom. Make the impressions and then have them pulled. That equates to more pain. I'm so over pain. I deal with it on a daily basis, but it is always tolerable without using meds. Then I think it will be a month of without teeth. I talked to mark tonight. He says the worry is worse than it is and after a slight period of getting use to them and how to eat with them, I'd probably be better off.
He said that he would have like to have seen me before the radiation started. Before the chemo I had restricted airways, after the chemo I stayed was so sick. I'm tired of the fight, I grow weary. It seems that it will never end. But, I'll rock up eventually. Then I will see what it costs and what I can afford, which I know it will be a lot of money. Our Dental insurance sucks. How to get the money is the great question and how long I have to get it. Right know, I haven't a clue as to what it will cost. So far, the savings we had are gone, but we've kept everybody paid up. Now the year starts again, only the savings is about depleted.
Note to God: I need a break now.
While he said he would do whatever I wanted, he was honest when I asked his opinion. That is one thing I really like about Dr Stelzman, he is sincere and honest, plus one of the best in the field. Dr Campbell was too when I saw her back right after the chemo, but she is facing some surgery, so I'm not taking anything from her. I know the team and Dr Stelzman from delivering to them for years, plus I went to them as a patient for many years. I trust him and the ladies there.
The treatment recommended is to pull all but 2, maybe 3 teeth teeth on the bottom, no guarantees if they will be saved. If he can save two of them he can make a partial, which he says is better than a full plate for using. I've heard that from may people. He says that it will be hard even then to keep them. Dr Sidney Boyd is who will extract them, most excellent in his field. We start Tuesday with the remaining back tooth first. Then, after it heals enough, we see if any can be saved of the 5 remaining teeth on the bottom. Make the impressions and then have them pulled. That equates to more pain. I'm so over pain. I deal with it on a daily basis, but it is always tolerable without using meds. Then I think it will be a month of without teeth. I talked to mark tonight. He says the worry is worse than it is and after a slight period of getting use to them and how to eat with them, I'd probably be better off.
He said that he would have like to have seen me before the radiation started. Before the chemo I had restricted airways, after the chemo I stayed was so sick. I'm tired of the fight, I grow weary. It seems that it will never end. But, I'll rock up eventually. Then I will see what it costs and what I can afford, which I know it will be a lot of money. Our Dental insurance sucks. How to get the money is the great question and how long I have to get it. Right know, I haven't a clue as to what it will cost. So far, the savings we had are gone, but we've kept everybody paid up. Now the year starts again, only the savings is about depleted.
Note to God: I need a break now.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
0102-2011
This is actually for Sunday. I caved in and went to the ER, seemed the only way to satisfy Denise, plus I wasn't any better. She took me to Morristown Hamblen Hospital, at first with the events of dad I strongly said no, but I'm glad went went. Turn around was actually quick. The PA was nice and knowledgeable, the nurse and the X-ray tech were too. This trip was more like I remembered from the heart attack in 05, extremely impressive.
I got lucky. The X-Ray showed no pneumonia but Acute Bronchitis. I have to taken Leviquin (spelling) for 7 days and use an inhalator every 4 hours. Denise said probably a combination of cleaning moldy cement in the basement but mostly from the Vitamin D pills getting stuck and dissolving in my throat. The ones I have are small pills and anything too small is prone to getting stuck or going up my nasal passages. The stuffy nose hasn't been much help and seemed to start about the same time. A Nettie Pot is what I use for sinuses. Dr Rathfoot even likes those. If snot was worth anything I'd be the next billionaire. So I ran in the New Year again sick, slept most of the day but nowhere near last New Year when this one seemed to be unattainable.
Tomorrow I have to feed the cows. Probably not good but something that has to be done, plus Denise has fed now for me everyday and Jack misses me, lol.
I got lucky. The X-Ray showed no pneumonia but Acute Bronchitis. I have to taken Leviquin (spelling) for 7 days and use an inhalator every 4 hours. Denise said probably a combination of cleaning moldy cement in the basement but mostly from the Vitamin D pills getting stuck and dissolving in my throat. The ones I have are small pills and anything too small is prone to getting stuck or going up my nasal passages. The stuffy nose hasn't been much help and seemed to start about the same time. A Nettie Pot is what I use for sinuses. Dr Rathfoot even likes those. If snot was worth anything I'd be the next billionaire. So I ran in the New Year again sick, slept most of the day but nowhere near last New Year when this one seemed to be unattainable.
Tomorrow I have to feed the cows. Probably not good but something that has to be done, plus Denise has fed now for me everyday and Jack misses me, lol.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year 2011
Whew, I made it. I did though shortly after bragging how good I can swallow get some Vitamin D capsules stuck and couldn't dislodge them. So much for bragging, lol. I woke up yesterday with a serious lung infection. Denise says I have pneumonia due to aspiration. I've ran a fever and for whatever reason can't see to clear my lungs. So if I wait until Monday I can see a doctor, not really keen on ERs. Denise has had to feed for me, I hate that since this the last of her vacation. Plus I kinda like doing that myself.
At any rate, Happy New Year.
At any rate, Happy New Year.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
12-31-2010
My last post for the year, next post will be in 2011. Funny, I didn't really think I would see this New Year come, but I'm still here. My old calendar comes down and my new Nasty Z28 Calendar goes up, and it begins with a 71 RS/SS.
As I see the year ending my physical condition has improved in some ways, stayed the same in others, and worsen in a few. My front tooth broke off and one dentist said that without Saliva Glands working the rest probably would too. I have a dental appointment with another dentist 1-10-2011. Hopefully that news will change. I definitely will have to get a partial if not a full plate. The neuropathy varies from day to day, especially when I forget my pills. It hasn't changed better though. The spasms, cramps, whatever you call them have increased. Tonight I said to heck with it and done a full stretch, it felt good... for about two seconds. This time both legs in the large muscles. Sometimes they hit in my kidney area. Sometimes the feet, arms... you name it. Lots of pain in those. My throat still tightens up at night making breathing labored, but overall it has improved. I can tolerate a little more spices and seldom get stuff in my airway and up the nose is less frequent too. I still can't swallow pills very good. Usually I use Yahoo or Milk, sometimes Tea. 8 prescription pills in the mornings, 2 mid day, 1 evening, and 5 before bed, plus whatever vitamins I decide to take. Spoke too soon, just lodged a small Vitamin D right then. Denise helped me dislodge it. That went straight for the lungs. I can't get it totally dislodged but it's a capsule do it will dissolve quickly...I hope. The hearing I about the same but it does show some progress. That was supposedly a chemo side effect.
I've found that extreme cold is about like heat... not too good. My thoughts on wondering if it's all gone or not are not present all the time like they were. As I get adjusted to the new me I am not as hard on myself for not getting done like I once did, but I still set goals a little higher after one is reached. I challenge myself, except in stairs, I don't do them well.
As this year closes I am so very grateful for my family and friends. I realize that I have been and am blessed. For as bad as this was and has been there have been some great things came out of it, so I don't look back at this year as being a bad year. We enter in the New Year minus one, dad. I know though where he is he is great now, still I miss him. I had hopes that this year would see a conclusion to this disease but it hasn't. Another Cat Scan is in April, hopefully that one will say clean and good to go.
Through all of this though God has blessed me with all of you, those who read this and those who don't but have remembered me in their prayers. If should it end tomorrow I die a wealthy man, not by the world's standards but by that which counts... God's.
So Happy New Year, Thank You, and God Bless.
As I see the year ending my physical condition has improved in some ways, stayed the same in others, and worsen in a few. My front tooth broke off and one dentist said that without Saliva Glands working the rest probably would too. I have a dental appointment with another dentist 1-10-2011. Hopefully that news will change. I definitely will have to get a partial if not a full plate. The neuropathy varies from day to day, especially when I forget my pills. It hasn't changed better though. The spasms, cramps, whatever you call them have increased. Tonight I said to heck with it and done a full stretch, it felt good... for about two seconds. This time both legs in the large muscles. Sometimes they hit in my kidney area. Sometimes the feet, arms... you name it. Lots of pain in those. My throat still tightens up at night making breathing labored, but overall it has improved. I can tolerate a little more spices and seldom get stuff in my airway and up the nose is less frequent too. I still can't swallow pills very good. Usually I use Yahoo or Milk, sometimes Tea. 8 prescription pills in the mornings, 2 mid day, 1 evening, and 5 before bed, plus whatever vitamins I decide to take. Spoke too soon, just lodged a small Vitamin D right then. Denise helped me dislodge it. That went straight for the lungs. I can't get it totally dislodged but it's a capsule do it will dissolve quickly...I hope. The hearing I about the same but it does show some progress. That was supposedly a chemo side effect.
I've found that extreme cold is about like heat... not too good. My thoughts on wondering if it's all gone or not are not present all the time like they were. As I get adjusted to the new me I am not as hard on myself for not getting done like I once did, but I still set goals a little higher after one is reached. I challenge myself, except in stairs, I don't do them well.
As this year closes I am so very grateful for my family and friends. I realize that I have been and am blessed. For as bad as this was and has been there have been some great things came out of it, so I don't look back at this year as being a bad year. We enter in the New Year minus one, dad. I know though where he is he is great now, still I miss him. I had hopes that this year would see a conclusion to this disease but it hasn't. Another Cat Scan is in April, hopefully that one will say clean and good to go.
Through all of this though God has blessed me with all of you, those who read this and those who don't but have remembered me in their prayers. If should it end tomorrow I die a wealthy man, not by the world's standards but by that which counts... God's.
So Happy New Year, Thank You, and God Bless.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
12-24-2010
I really didn't expect to see this Christmas, but I made it so far. I didn't figure dad would be missing but I figure he has the best seat in the house. Today is mom's birthday, so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Since I'm here I wish everybody a
Merry Christmas
And thank all those who have been through this with me, prayed for me, wished me good thoughts, and those who cared for me, my family, friends, medical providers, and kind strangers I've met along the way.
So, from me and Jack, Merry Christmas and Thank You.
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