03-04-2010

  I woke up this morning with my upper legs feeling like I had ran a marathon. My thigh muscles ache and pain meds have no effect on them, I tried a Loratab with no results. Going up steps isn't as bad as going down them. I more or less walk down them with my arms on the rails. The pain is back in my feet. The dosage is up to 400 mg twice per day of the Gabapentin so one would think the pain would either be gone or decreased, yet it increases. I've also gotten to where I get up fast and have head spins and loss of balance, but it usually doesn't last too long. I'm still numb on my left forehead that comes and goes. Sitting down, getting out of the car or chair is becoming difficult. 

  I'm doing the last week of the patch and by the end of the week I will be done with them, thank God. I have pills waiting but probably not enough to finish the tapering. I think however that I have enough to get me though til Monday. Ok scratch that, Denise said I have 2 more to go after this one.

  My hair is coming in good though. The front however is fairly thin. Denise said I look like The Transporter, lol. That beats Jack Nicholson, lol. My beard is full now where I have hair. You can see the outline of the radiation and where they hit it. So strange. It is suppose to be pretty this weekend so maybe I can begin to rebuild my muscles. I would love to ride my bike but I don't dare, I'm not even sure that I can hold it up.

  I've went back to taking Ginko Biloba for my blood thinner and Turmeric Curcumin which has a lot of good qualities. If I can get my system clean I will start the B-17.

   Denise said she finally got help with her Blood Pressure today which takes a lot of stress off. I know what happened when I ignored mine. Funny, I too said that it makes me work faster and harder and it did, for a while. Definitely nothing to mess with. Denise fills in all the things I lack as a person. I really do not think she knows how much she means to me and the kids.

  Beautiful day today though. I put out a Sulfur Block to the cows and got chicken feed. I went by where she works and was going to speak with Rama about her Blood Pressure, but she promised that she would do it herself. I received my new garage door and hopefully I will install it this weekend. That should be a real test. Maybe clean up a bit around outside if I get that done before National Geographic which is coming they think next week for the first interview. Right now it looks pretty bad.

  The scalding I done on my legs is tolerable today and finger healing quite well. The skin on my feet look bad but I don't feel it, just the bottoms. Note to self, try feeling the warmth with arms not hands, lol. All in all, a good day. I've seen better, but I've seen much, much, worse.