Last night and later yesterday the chemo hit home hard. Denise came in and said I was on the floor with no O2 attached speaking incoherently. It took a while to get me up from the floor and argumentive. So what do I remember...
I remember being on the web, eBay and Amazon tabs open and looking around, probably a Youtube tab too as I am looking to see how to install a camera system her. I remember starting to take a Lortab for breakthrough pain as the top of my shoulders and front of the top of the shoulders were in major pain. Since it was probably the diaphragm going into spasms I was also considering the Baclofen as it ceases the spasms brought on not from the chemo but from the Steroid itself. That was the end of my memory.
We talked with Dr. Flanders and Denise mentioned I was having hiccups. These are not regular hiccups but rather dangerous ones. He said there was a patient who had not slept in 3 days once but failed to mention them. Turns out Baclofen, Gabepinten, and another drug stop them. I had the hiccups the 2nd chemo but no pain, not sure I mentioned it, but this one has no hiccups and intense pain. It could be that I'm keeping enough in my system to avert the hiccups but not enough to avert this pain. It feels like someone has inserted a large knife and cutting through bone and meat almost all the way through.
Annie & TC came back here and offered to stay while Denise fed the chickens and watch me, but I had stabilized by then. Funny how neither one has called to check since they left and it is now 4:07pm the next day. It is back this evening but I will not make the same mistake I did before. This chemo hits not as hard but it hits later than the throat cancer chemo which hit the next day and lasted longer. This morning I was at my computer desk in my bedroom when suddenly a flash of light like a camera flash went off and I came to just in time to avoid crashing into the desk. TMI? Denise had gone to her mom's to fix some things and I was here alone, that woke me up and said get your butt to bed. I slept until 12pm. My system is taxed I can tell. I am weak, off-balance, in pain, tired, and I am still bleeding a lot thanks to the biopsy from UT. The bleeding has never stopped and when I told the Dr. at UT it hasn't even slowed down his answer 2 times was give it a few days. A "few days" has now turned into over a month with no signs of ending soon.
I remember being on the web, eBay and Amazon tabs open and looking around, probably a Youtube tab too as I am looking to see how to install a camera system her. I remember starting to take a Lortab for breakthrough pain as the top of my shoulders and front of the top of the shoulders were in major pain. Since it was probably the diaphragm going into spasms I was also considering the Baclofen as it ceases the spasms brought on not from the chemo but from the Steroid itself. That was the end of my memory.
We talked with Dr. Flanders and Denise mentioned I was having hiccups. These are not regular hiccups but rather dangerous ones. He said there was a patient who had not slept in 3 days once but failed to mention them. Turns out Baclofen, Gabepinten, and another drug stop them. I had the hiccups the 2nd chemo but no pain, not sure I mentioned it, but this one has no hiccups and intense pain. It could be that I'm keeping enough in my system to avert the hiccups but not enough to avert this pain. It feels like someone has inserted a large knife and cutting through bone and meat almost all the way through.
Annie & TC came back here and offered to stay while Denise fed the chickens and watch me, but I had stabilized by then. Funny how neither one has called to check since they left and it is now 4:07pm the next day. It is back this evening but I will not make the same mistake I did before. This chemo hits not as hard but it hits later than the throat cancer chemo which hit the next day and lasted longer. This morning I was at my computer desk in my bedroom when suddenly a flash of light like a camera flash went off and I came to just in time to avoid crashing into the desk. TMI? Denise had gone to her mom's to fix some things and I was here alone, that woke me up and said get your butt to bed. I slept until 12pm. My system is taxed I can tell. I am weak, off-balance, in pain, tired, and I am still bleeding a lot thanks to the biopsy from UT. The bleeding has never stopped and when I told the Dr. at UT it hasn't even slowed down his answer 2 times was give it a few days. A "few days" has now turned into over a month with no signs of ending soon.
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