Wednesday, August 26, 2015

09-27-2015

   Charlie got his PET Scan back, it is cancer in his lungs. The doctor told him he would get with another doctor and maybe do a biopsy to see if it is the fast kind, or the slow kind. Either way though, surgery is not an option, it is too advanced.

  Throat cancer can follow what they call "the tree", that is the brain, throat, lungs. So while Charlie's throat cancer is gone (I think), his cancer isn't. It has just migrated. We've lost several in or family to cancer and it has been our experience that when it comes back after chemo and radiation, there is little to no resistance. As the doctor explained to me before my treatments started, "It like dropping a nuclear bomb on a battlefield. It kills the enemy but also kills the good guys too."

  Please remember Charlie in your prayers.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

09-25-2015

   Things go good then bad, intermittently... right now in a bad phase. I think it is something in the garden that has my sinuses, throat, and breathing shallowed. I noticed Megan after being in the Green Bean area doing much the same. Still, it leaves one to always wonder if this stuff migrated. I guess that goes with the territory. It seems I don't sleep much anymore, waking up several times in the night and hard pressed to get to sleep to start with. That translates to not getting a whole lot done. Right now I say I wouldn't do nothing except let the doctor keep me out of pain if it returns, but I am reminded of what an old Indian Chief once said. "Its easier to be brave at a distance".

   Today and tonight I find myself still troubled after today's news. Charlie's cancer is back and into his lungs. I remember the doctor telling us it follows the "tree", which was throat, lungs, and/or brain. Charlie and Tina are devastated. Tina said the doctor said he had it for a while and it is inoperable. The only thing they can do is see if it is the fast kind or slow kind. I guess that will determine how long he has.

   One of my best friends I worked with at UPS who battled cancer, he and his wife, she died a couple of days ago. Hers came back and after a valiant battle for 2 years, he trials are over. They were married 30 years. How does one recover from the loss of a partner after that many years? Danny is strong and a good man, his faith is strong as was Kathy, his wife. We know there is no such thing as good-bye yet that does little to actually ease the pain. For Kathy I rejoice but for Danny, I am sad.

  But is all hasn't been a bad year, I grew (with help), 2 small gardens. Like last year though I couldn't keep up with them, I guess those days are gone. It was a weird year for gardening and we managed to produce enough, so it wasn't a waste. Like Charlie, I can't do this heat. The important thing though is I try and as long as someone tries, they never really fail. I also bought a boat, yep, a boat. We really don't have the money to spend on one but I got this super cheap. Me and Megan's new boy friend have worked on it. Did you get that? Megan's new boyfriend. I like Cody, he is a fine young man and treats Megan with respect and works hard. We are planning on doing something I have anted to do for the last 30-40 years... go fishing. Last weekend we attempted to put it in the water but failed. It leaks and needs 2 new seals, which I promptly ordered. I really want to get it in the water just one time at least before they let the lakes down too low for it to work. Yep, I bought another boat that needs fixing. The other one I never quite got it to run.  Our hay for the year is done.

   Denise just shakes her head when I do junk like this. She is patient with me when I do something like that or take a while to do something slowly. I have come to know that patience is a gift from God and something to work to obtain. He is patient with us, so imitating His virtues is just one way we show our devotion. She knows I wear down easily but she also knows I will try as hard as I can. I am at that stage in life where I would like to enjoy a little, not much but a little. I want Denise to enjoy with me. I'll never be able to afford to take her on an expensive vacation. Seldom am I ok to ride the bike, it gets more rare every year. But I can take her boating and fishing. It is not the motorcycle but just as much fun. I did shoot a Buzzard (Vulture) that was one of 16 that attacked and killed our new born calf. We may get reimbursed, so I submitted a claim. The guy said they were Federally protected. What was left of the calf was in the field and over in the distance was a dead bird. I smiled and told him that one wasn't as protected, lol.

  So in a nutshell that has been lately.
       

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Follow Up 06-22-2015 (Rathfoot)

Today was my 3 month follow-up with Dr Rathfoot. Despite being a little sore (my fault from timing) all things look good so I get another 3 months. Stretching and injections may be in the future but for now he was impressed. This is twice now HBOT has been a God send in reversing the radiation damage.

  I did however discover something not so good, I'm fatter than I thought. At 250lbs this is the most I have ever weighed and it means it is well past time to make some changes. Some say the Prednisone but I think equally guilty are Dr Peppers, Potato Chips, and Cookies. I was rather surprised to see I am that heavy. I told the nurse I'm not really over weight, I'm under tall. I got a laugh out of her. 

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Hello

     I apologize for not responding back when someone posts on here. A good friend called me yesterday, it was nice to hear from her, to check on me. She said her and David had wondered if I was ok since I hadn't responded back. It is nice that I have friends who care and were worried. It was also nice to hear from her and how she and her family are doing. I have this set up to where it is suppose to email me when comments are left and for whatever reason it has stopped doing that. I did notice that it restarted finally, a little late notifying me with Lori's comment, but maybe whatever the host's problem was is fixed. Every now and then I would check but I must have picked the ones where nobody had commented. I assumed that nobody was reading or had anything to say. I apologize for not looking a bit harder.

          I'm not sure if I put that the second test showed the combination of the Arthritis medicine and Prednisone were what stripped my Platelets or not. I put off the second test, caught a bug then caught laziness. They wanted me to stop the medicine and take pain medicine but I cut it in half instead. I bought a cheap TENS Unit off Ebay and use that to ease the pain. I remember having them do those treatments in Physical Therapy when I was at UPS, seems I was tearing or stressing something out the last few years, shoulders, elbow, ankles, knees. It actually works, even with the cheaper one I bought. It is not a miracle and don't stop all pain but it does enough. It is not evasive, addictive, and to my knowledge has no side effects. I got a new one in a couple of weeks ago that has reusable electrode pads, or at least I'm reusing them. Megan twisted an ankle and it helped her heal faster.

   Megan has a boyfriend! Yep, our baby is growing up. He is a nice boy, well I guess young man, big dude, 6'4". He graduated TSD (Tennessee School for the Deaf) but he is like Megan, actually seems to have more hearing that she does. I watched them and they talk sign language when they don't want us to know what they're saying, lol. Denise don't know sign language but I know some, how me and Megan converse when at the beach or in a crowd. I turn my head though, I don't want to ease drop. He probably don't know I know and she is a bit excited and maybe forgets I know, or maybe she knows I will stand to the side and give them some privacy. The hardest thing about being a parent is watching your kids grow up and have a life that you are not the center of. Megan is my work buddy too, so now I am alone, yet I am happy that should something happen to me and Denise, she will not be alone. Basically it is hard to share your kids, but part perhaps one of the circles in life where a parent has to love their children more than themselves, enough to let go. All three girls now have someone, all three are different and all three are good. I see a lot of Megan in this boy named Greg. There is a connection there between them and should it not work out I feel they will be friends either way. He is quite impressive so far. Megan use to say she is fat or ugly, or different. The only one of those that were true is the different part. I told her to the right person you will be perfect and to the wrong person you will never be enough. There is a right person out there, they just haven't surfaced yet. It is good to see her so happy and know that should that day come, all three girls will not be alone.    

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Happy Birthday Denise

Happy Birthday Denise

I Love You

 

 



Monday, May 4, 2015

05-04-2015 Blood work

  The results came back on my blood work and Denise will fax them to Dr Bushkell this week after she goes over them with Deb to see what she thinks. My Platelets are low and I assume that means we don't have lunch, lol. Why they are low is a good guess. The Prednisone, Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma kicking it up a notch, who knows. Everything else seems to be OK she said, so that is a good thing. I figured something was up. I bump myself and bruise and I don't normally bruise. My skin also tears easily and I bleed like crazy. Of course it is always in the back of my mind what if the other cancer is back. I looked on WebMD and it says that fatigue goes with the low platelets, and there I thought it was because I'm fat. I figured the tired all the time was from the weight gain. I'm either fat or under tall and since my feet are going out of sight I figured fat. If it is the NHL I will not do anything more than I am now unless it would be natural. I will just ride it out and pray the ride ends fast.

  It is spring and garden season, now to get it put out. We got it out last year but I just wasn't able to maintain it like I should have been able to do. This year we will do the green beans again, first time in 2 years. I tilled Charlie's garden with the Rotorvator, but he is not sure if he will get to put one out. It seems he is having a hard time too, but in a different way. He has a series of blood clot or something like clots in his right leg all the way into his foot. William can't help him with it either, he is down to 15% of his Kidneys and suppose to start Dialysis. Tina had a heart attack, but she is doing good. It has been a Hell of a year again. One thing is for sure, there ain't many of us left now to lose so maybe the newer generations will fair better. Mark was a plus, his sight in one eye has been restored and next is the other eye. Annie graduated RN school, there is yet another plus. We go Thursday to see her graduate or get Pinned or something, maybe both?

  I think of something I heard that I liked and seems to be true. If you want to make God laugh, make plans. Certainly life has not quite turned out like I had thought when I was young, but that doesn't mean it didn't turn out. I have been blessed with the good times, and to have survived and eventually thrived through the bad. Not that I'm a Saint but in the journey I lost me way, but found it back again. I would say I found God, except it wasn't Him that was lost, it was me. If life had been easy that never would have happened, so I am blessed. It isn't this world we should seek but the next. Whatever comes of this will come and we will deal with it as best we can as long as we can. Its all good.