Today's radiation went well. I complimented the team on how the care they gave was top-notch and, extremely appreciated, yet I fell short in making that point. After the next few times, I will begin to feel them, more and more each time. I remember the chemo was Hell last time but the Radiation was worse. Chemo gets rough quicker but Radiation is the slow and steady runner. From this point onward I will need to stay on my toes. I went to bed with a temperature of 99.5, which don't seem like much but fevers can peak in a matter of minutes when doing chemo and radiation and become dangerous. That is what landed in in UT in 2009 for over a week.
I looked around tonight as Misty and I exchanged texts and suddenly it occurred to me that this bedroom that was once my Sanctuary has so become again. This time, however, so far I can come and go, something I couldn't do after 2 Chemos. Still, it has become once again my safe haven. You have a lot of time to think in here, maybe too much. Lots of unanswered questions like will I be here in a year, what about five? Each time you lose some of your abilities, what will remain this time? Will I grow a garden again? Will, I still have Cows, Donkeys, Sheep, and chickens? Will I be able to build stuff, work on cars, tractors, and the house? It is real thoughts and dreams, hopes and fears. Part of me will be lost this time as well, but what will remain, and will it be enough to build from?
Last night I sweated so much and I noticed the signs of dehydration, another danger, so I rehydrated. Water and Gatoraid have surely been my saving grace so far as I have done this often already. Last time I didn't know what to expect and was caught off guard, this time I still don't know because there is a difference like a day and night between the treatments, just as the Doctors said. I'm expecting the worse yet gathering better that I had prepared to get.
So maybe I beat this stuff and maybe I don't. That said, I feel I have the best medical people that can be found and the hospital that matches them. I think they are all good people and doing their very best. I go next week to get set up with the Gamma Knife people and I will be glad that is over with. That will be 1 tumor down, 2 to go. Freaky It is in the brain but blessed it is where it is, they can remove.
Already running a temperature of 99.9 and feeling some effects on dehydration so not so fast Dr. Pepper, hello Gatoraid and coming shortly afterward, the water that has been alkalinized to a Ph 10. Not purified, no chemical, just good clean water.
Also, Denise got me a Wedge pillow that I can't wait to sleep on. I'm looking forward to that tonight and a trip to Yoder's Market tomorrow, I think going with her to the Jeep place may just be too much. I always like to walk around the lot when we go and that would prove to be a bit too much. Never thought I'd get this excited over a pillow.
I looked around tonight as Misty and I exchanged texts and suddenly it occurred to me that this bedroom that was once my Sanctuary has so become again. This time, however, so far I can come and go, something I couldn't do after 2 Chemos. Still, it has become once again my safe haven. You have a lot of time to think in here, maybe too much. Lots of unanswered questions like will I be here in a year, what about five? Each time you lose some of your abilities, what will remain this time? Will I grow a garden again? Will, I still have Cows, Donkeys, Sheep, and chickens? Will I be able to build stuff, work on cars, tractors, and the house? It is real thoughts and dreams, hopes and fears. Part of me will be lost this time as well, but what will remain, and will it be enough to build from?
Last night I sweated so much and I noticed the signs of dehydration, another danger, so I rehydrated. Water and Gatoraid have surely been my saving grace so far as I have done this often already. Last time I didn't know what to expect and was caught off guard, this time I still don't know because there is a difference like a day and night between the treatments, just as the Doctors said. I'm expecting the worse yet gathering better that I had prepared to get.
So maybe I beat this stuff and maybe I don't. That said, I feel I have the best medical people that can be found and the hospital that matches them. I think they are all good people and doing their very best. I go next week to get set up with the Gamma Knife people and I will be glad that is over with. That will be 1 tumor down, 2 to go. Freaky It is in the brain but blessed it is where it is, they can remove.
UPDATE:
Already running a temperature of 99.9 and feeling some effects on dehydration so not so fast Dr. Pepper, hello Gatoraid and coming shortly afterward, the water that has been alkalinized to a Ph 10. Not purified, no chemical, just good clean water.
Also, Denise got me a Wedge pillow that I can't wait to sleep on. I'm looking forward to that tonight and a trip to Yoder's Market tomorrow, I think going with her to the Jeep place may just be too much. I always like to walk around the lot when we go and that would prove to be a bit too much. Never thought I'd get this excited over a pillow.
