Thank God it's Saturday. I've slept most of the day on and off and ate pain pills and Lidocane, neither seem to work. Since my blood work wasn't good I stayed home and Denise & the kids went Christmas shopping. I don't think I would have had the energy even if my immunity was strong. My throat is raw on the outside too. There are lotions that they can prescribe but they haven't as of yet. Why? I done a little reading and we came up with EMU oil which seems to help a little. There has to be a better way.
One good sneeze and it feels like my throat ripped, especially on the side the tumor isn't on. That is a definite watch out for, problem is, my saliva glands still aren't working. The spray that the lady with mouth cancer suggested works a bit to lubricate briefly, it is called biotene. Problem is that it is brief and when you awake you do so to a dry mouth that feels like it is cracking open.
So far I've managed to eat 3 or 4 bites of scrambled eggs, some mashed potatoes (about 8 spoons), 1 pudding, and drank 2 Ensures. Water even feels like fire going down. I am at a loss this time as to what will work, if indeed, anything. My voice is all but gone and it hurts to even whisper. Those that have called I either didn't awake to the phone ringing or knew I would not be able to talk. So I apologize for that.
If it is like this Monday I'm not sure what I will call it quits for a bit. The Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma has taken advantage of this opportunity and is spread all over, even the top part of my hand, and that is a first. I keep going over in my mind that if this is standard then why isn't the things you need prescribed first hand like with Chemo. It is a lot easier to stay ahead than play catch-up.
