Wednesday, August 26, 2015

09-27-2015

   Charlie got his PET Scan back, it is cancer in his lungs. The doctor told him he would get with another doctor and maybe do a biopsy to see if it is the fast kind, or the slow kind. Either way though, surgery is not an option, it is too advanced.

  Throat cancer can follow what they call "the tree", that is the brain, throat, lungs. So while Charlie's throat cancer is gone (I think), his cancer isn't. It has just migrated. We've lost several in or family to cancer and it has been our experience that when it comes back after chemo and radiation, there is little to no resistance. As the doctor explained to me before my treatments started, "It like dropping a nuclear bomb on a battlefield. It kills the enemy but also kills the good guys too."

  Please remember Charlie in your prayers.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

09-25-2015

   Things go good then bad, intermittently... right now in a bad phase. I think it is something in the garden that has my sinuses, throat, and breathing shallowed. I noticed Megan after being in the Green Bean area doing much the same. Still, it leaves one to always wonder if this stuff migrated. I guess that goes with the territory. It seems I don't sleep much anymore, waking up several times in the night and hard pressed to get to sleep to start with. That translates to not getting a whole lot done. Right now I say I wouldn't do nothing except let the doctor keep me out of pain if it returns, but I am reminded of what an old Indian Chief once said. "Its easier to be brave at a distance".

   Today and tonight I find myself still troubled after today's news. Charlie's cancer is back and into his lungs. I remember the doctor telling us it follows the "tree", which was throat, lungs, and/or brain. Charlie and Tina are devastated. Tina said the doctor said he had it for a while and it is inoperable. The only thing they can do is see if it is the fast kind or slow kind. I guess that will determine how long he has.

   One of my best friends I worked with at UPS who battled cancer, he and his wife, she died a couple of days ago. Hers came back and after a valiant battle for 2 years, he trials are over. They were married 30 years. How does one recover from the loss of a partner after that many years? Danny is strong and a good man, his faith is strong as was Kathy, his wife. We know there is no such thing as good-bye yet that does little to actually ease the pain. For Kathy I rejoice but for Danny, I am sad.

  But is all hasn't been a bad year, I grew (with help), 2 small gardens. Like last year though I couldn't keep up with them, I guess those days are gone. It was a weird year for gardening and we managed to produce enough, so it wasn't a waste. Like Charlie, I can't do this heat. The important thing though is I try and as long as someone tries, they never really fail. I also bought a boat, yep, a boat. We really don't have the money to spend on one but I got this super cheap. Me and Megan's new boy friend have worked on it. Did you get that? Megan's new boyfriend. I like Cody, he is a fine young man and treats Megan with respect and works hard. We are planning on doing something I have anted to do for the last 30-40 years... go fishing. Last weekend we attempted to put it in the water but failed. It leaks and needs 2 new seals, which I promptly ordered. I really want to get it in the water just one time at least before they let the lakes down too low for it to work. Yep, I bought another boat that needs fixing. The other one I never quite got it to run.  Our hay for the year is done.

   Denise just shakes her head when I do junk like this. She is patient with me when I do something like that or take a while to do something slowly. I have come to know that patience is a gift from God and something to work to obtain. He is patient with us, so imitating His virtues is just one way we show our devotion. She knows I wear down easily but she also knows I will try as hard as I can. I am at that stage in life where I would like to enjoy a little, not much but a little. I want Denise to enjoy with me. I'll never be able to afford to take her on an expensive vacation. Seldom am I ok to ride the bike, it gets more rare every year. But I can take her boating and fishing. It is not the motorcycle but just as much fun. I did shoot a Buzzard (Vulture) that was one of 16 that attacked and killed our new born calf. We may get reimbursed, so I submitted a claim. The guy said they were Federally protected. What was left of the calf was in the field and over in the distance was a dead bird. I smiled and told him that one wasn't as protected, lol.

  So in a nutshell that has been lately.
       

Tuesday, August 11, 2015