Wednesday, August 11, 2010


  We just got back from Panella who went over the scan. He was called out of the room before he could go over it with us. The report said that the disease has progressed. It shows something like 4.7mm, much larger than the 2.5mm I started with. Panella said I had a lot of damage inside from the radiation and that it might be what it is. He also went over removing the larynx, which I declined. He wants Rathfoot to take a better look inside once again, which I will let him do.

  Denise and I had a chat om the way back, she cried. Sometimes the answer is no. I asked her as I do the ones that know me to not let this shake their faith in God, He knows best. We pray and He hears us, so please pray. But if the answer He gives is no, while we don't always understand why, He does know best. I also asked her to not ask me to fight anymore if cancer is still here, I really don't think I can.  


Anonymous said...

Hello...... I just read your blog found it by looking for something to give my brother who is in his final days of stage 4 throat that can make his thirst and hunger go away with out hurting. I am taking care of him at home with hospice and not easy. It is painful for both of us and he is a fighter. I just want to wish you the best in whatever decision makes you comfortable and that you want, cause its just about how you feel. Good luck and my thoughts are with you.

Anthony said...

Thank you and I will remember your brother in my prayers. Your brother is a very blessed to have you as a sister. If you or he ever needs to talk just let me know. My email here is or I'll be glad to call you or give you my number. My real dad died of this same kind too a few years ago. If there is anything I can do to help just ask. I will do all I can, but I know that doesn't make it easy but perhaps lessens the load.